My Body. My Choice.

 choice: n. An option; a decision; an opportunity to choose or select something.

Am I turning into one of those old ladies who spouts her opinion because she can? was my thought. You know the type. No one asks what they think or feel, but they voice it anyway.

It had been a while since I weeded a gravel path, but there I was--on my hands and knees. The forest fire smoke that blanketed the area earlier in the day was being swept off by a breeze. The thermometer was cooperating, so I wasn't getting overheated. It was a good time to think.

I am not one prone to confrontation or conflict. If anything, I may tend to be too passive--or perhaps, I used to be. Much of my writing has been on the "safe" side. Do I really want to write about this? I asked myself. 

Yes. Good, bad. Right or wrong. I have something to say. And I'm going to say it.

A war cry is being shouted across the land by pro-abortionists: "My body. My choice."

Since the beginning of creation, procreation has taken place on planet Earth between a male and a female. A sperm cell from the father fuses with an egg cell from the mother, and conception takes place, the start of pregnancy. This is the beginning of a new life, a God-given life. 

Within 24 hours after fertilization, the egg that will become a baby rapidly divides into many cells. God designed the female body to provide a cocoon for that new life until he/she is able to survive in the world as we know it. 

There are those who try to argue the fertilized, developing embryo is "just a blob of cells," and is, therefore, expendable. I would remind those who take that stand that every person on the face of the earth was once in that state, including them. 

Some feel abortion is necessary if there is an indication the baby won't be "perfect." That thinking includes those with Down's Syndrome. My cousin was one of those "imperfect" people. Bonita had more kindness and love in her heart than most people have in their pinky, including those who would have advocated she be aborted.

Many who are pro-abortion feel they have a right to do whatever they want when it comes to pregnancy-- unwanted, inconvenient, or otherwise. 

What is an abortion? It is "the expulsion from the womb of a fetus or embryo before it is fully developed." What is pregnancy? It is "the progression of stages from conception to birth."

The basis for an abortion is the presence of life. Abortion is the termination of life.

Yes. It is your body. Yes. It is your choice. But understand that the choice you are making isn't about whether you want curly fries or tater tots. It is a life or death choice, and that decision doesn't affect only you. It affects an innocent, one without voice who is given no choice over his/her destiny.

 

  

 

 

 

 

On Being Homogenized

homogenous: adj. Of the same kind; alike, similar. Having the same composition throughout; of uniform make-up

We are living out a paradox. Our nation, the United States of America, is divided. Yet there is a push to eliminate voices which are contrary to a prescribed and predetermined thought pattern. (Isn't that called censorship?) In other words, those in power are demanding our nation's citizens become homogenized. Dissenters are labeled phobic, racist, terrorist, or the next popular catch phrase that will become a trend-setter..

Conforming, becoming homogenous, is the antithesis of being recognized as individual creations. It is our God-given right to be our own person--which includes having personal thoughts, opinions, and perspectives. NO ONE has the license to discount them because they either don't like them or disagree. Neither do they have the authority to label, silence, nor require I become part of the mix and become "homogenized."

I am the daughter of a farmer who raised milk cows. I know that raw milk separates, and the cream rises to the top. Homogenized milk is milk which undergoes high pressure, dispersing the fat so there is no identifiable separation. 

Those of us who are refusing to conform are under an enormous amount of pressure. I say "Leave that process for milk. I am my own person."

Be true to yourself--before God--and watch the cream rise. That's where the quality is, the high-dollar stuff. Ask any dairyman who gets paid by the amount of butterfat in the milk his cows produce.

It's in the separation, not the homogenization.

 

                       Come out from among them, and be separate, says the Lord.

                 ,,,I will be a Father to you, and you shall be My sons and daughters,

                                           says the Lord Almighty. 

                                    2 Corinthians 6: 17, 18 NRSVUE

 

 

On Censorship

censorship: n. The use of state or group power to control freedom of expression or press, such as passing laws to prevent media from being published or propagated. 

It is happening. We aren't looking across the seas to foreign nations ruled by dictators. It is taking place every day at our front door, right in our laps as we scroll through our phones and tablets. Censorship is a part of the landscape of the United States of America. 

In the same way oppressive, strangling weeds poke their heads out of the dirt as non-threatening specks of green, the muzzling and shutting down of speech was apparent when fact checkers began to rule the pages of social media. Who was able to argue with these innocuous folk who made certain policy was kept in check? No argument was allowed as disagreement was quickly corralled.

I knew things were getting downright serious when the voice of our sitting President was cut off by the "powers that be." In the same way hired goons are used to do the dirty work of organized crime, Facebook, Twitter, Google, Amazon, and others are using their power to control speech. "It’s OK! It's not the government." The fact that these entities of private companies and state are joined at the hip like Siamese twins is overlooked and ignored. Evil is insidious like that. 

The growth and power of censorship is evident on a daily basis. Those in control mete out judgments of misinformation" and "disinformation" as free speech is forbidden on these platforms. True discernment, however, is the missing element as truth vs. lie is viewed through the flawed lens of humankind--and a spiritual enemy who is the great liar. Post or say something they do not approve of and it will be removed. Your...my voice will be silenced. And it is.

I used to be frightened by the prospect of this happening...used to be.

As evil is exposed in all its glory, I am not powerless. The fools of the worlds have not reckoned with the reality that no man can silence my voice as I cry out to God. Those cries do not go unheard nor are they ignored. He hears and He answers.

They aren't going to know what hit them.

The Lord hath heard my supplication;

the Lord will receive my prayer.

Psalm 6:9Jud

On Unbelief

unbelief: n. an absence of belief.

belief: n. Mental acceptance of a claim as true. Faith or trust in the reality of something; often based upon one’s own reasoning, trust in a claim, desire of actuality, and/or evidence considered.

 

I wonder if he knows I’m the one who feeds him.

I heard him before I saw him. I’ve learned to recognize the click-clicking sound of my resident hummingbird. He frequents a feeder filled with sugar water hanging on my back patio. Many hummers feed while poised midair, beating their wings. This little guy plants himself on the perch of the feeder and guzzles away—often for long periods at a time.

Today, while I dug in the soil, seeking renewal of my mind and spirit, he sat atop the highest branch of the nearby lilac bush like a sentinel. Typically, hummingbirds appear to be in nonstop flight mode, vaguely resembling miniature bombers as they flap their wings up to four thousand times a minute. Not so this little guy. He knows how to have his “down” time.

I head for the outdoors and fresh air when claustrophobia sets in. Winter has just officially started but weeds have already begun to take over any bare soil with bright green vegetation. Several industrial-sized garbage bags filled with leaves waited to be spread on my garden. It was late in the day and quite cool. I dressed in warm clothes, responding to my garden’s beckoning.

I call it “hands-and-knees” kind of thinking. The mindless work frees up the mind for thought. The moist soil allowed the weeds to come out easily. I cleared an area to stack with leaves that would compost, enriching the soil.

 Periodically I glanced up and noted my feathered friend hadn't moved from his observation. Occasionally he dashed away to some very important appointment but quickly returned to his station. When I’m in this pensive frame of mind, I don’t keep track of time. It was just God and me—and the hummingbird made three.

My heart has felt like a weight recently. I have been unable to find relief and peace in these troubling times. Writing has become a part of who I am but the only thing I’ve been able to write about is worry and inner turmoil as I seek the “peace that passes all understanding.”

The hummingbird's presence was a reminder: "Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?"  Matthew 6:26 NIV I cannot deny the love and care God has given me throughout my life. He is worthy of more than I am giving Him.

As darkness approached, I gathered my tools. "Help my unbelief " my heart cried as I went inside to the welcoming warmth. The hummer flew off to settle down for the night as well.

Christ’s ministry on earth lasted three years. It began when He was ordained by the Holy Spirit at the time of His baptism by John. It ended with His crucifixion, resurrection, and ascension into heaven. 

During this time He called twelve to walk with Him. These ordinary men left their lives and families to follow Him, to be taught, to be part of an extraordinary event taking place before their eyes.

 Three of the disciples--Peter, James, and John--went with Christ to a mountaintop. There, God Himself verified that Christ was His beloved son. Jesus visibly changed into His heavenly form before the disciples’ eyes. He instructed them, however, to tell no one what they had witnessed.

A crowd formed below and waited while the four were on the mountain. It included a father who brought his demon-possessed son to be healed. I can only imagine the disappointment and heartache he experienced—going from the highest hope to the lowest low--when none of the disciples there were able to free the young man. In that emotional devastation, he was undoubtedly overwhelmed with doubt..

When Jesus came down, the father told Him that an evil spirit caused him to be deaf and mute, brought seizures, and tried to destroy him by casting him into fire or water. The father begged Jesus for help. “Everything is possible for one who believes,” Jesus responded.

With tears rolling down his face, the dad cried out, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief”  With that Jesus rebuked the foul spirit, ordering him to come out of the child and never enter him again.

Later, the disciples privately asked why they were unable to cast the demon out. “This kind can only come out by prayer,” Jesus answered.

The world is in an upheaval. I am living in a divided nation--brother against brother, one way of governing in direct opposition to another. A global pandemic threatens lives while altering our freedoms. Riotous destruction without consequence is rampant in many cities as pervasive lawlessness reigns. And it has transpired in what feels like the blink of an eye.

I have been living like a yo-yo recently. I’m up. Then I'm down. I am a person of faith, and I know in my heart that nothing happens that is separate from God, including right here, right now. I can relate to that father and his dichotomy--the appearance of a contradiction of faith.

How can I believe and still have unbelief?

Doubt is the leavening of unbelief. It may come in a torrential flood or silently move in like a stifling fog. The underlying goal of doubt never varies. That goal is to challenge the validity and strength of one’s faith. Care must be taken to keep doubt outside the door instead of allowing it to walk in and take up residence.  

Living life with God is a process. There is nothing magical about it. Much of it is digging deep, grinding out the nitty gritty of things. Unbelief falls in that category. It cannot be willed away by the power of one’s mind and needs to be dealt with--by God and in His presence.

“I do believe. Help my unbelief.”

I am at His mercy.

By the way, I read that hummingbirds do recognize people. Although they are territorial, I believe my resident hummer knows I am the one who feeds him. He has been given to me by God and offered support as I cleaned up two very different types of gardens--my outer and my inner. 

I am blessed.

 

My Rocking Chair Barometer and Worry

barometer: n. An instrument for measuring atmospheric pressure. Something which reflects changes in circumstances or opinions.

 

The rocking chair slowed from a frenetic pace to one of leisure. That was when I realized I had calmed down and was at peace.

The rocker has been part of my life for over twenty years. I bought it when I became a grandmother. I wanted to have a rocking chair where I could cuddle and rock my grandbabies. At the top of my list of requirements was that it be solid and well-made, able to withstand the rambunctious toddler stage as well. A worthwhile purchase, the chair has survived as a silent reminder of hours spent with five precious little girls, now young women.

The original navy cushions have been replaced with ones of rich gold and rust. The comfort I found in my rocking chair with my grandgirls, however, has not gone anywhere. The rhythmic motion of rocking continues to soothe my soul.

My days begin in that rocker. I have a morning ritual that includes drinking healthy beverages, including a smoothy made of greens and fruits. As I sit, sipping my elixirs, I check my electronic devices. The gamut runs from perusing social media and reading any messages sent my way to doing a search for answers to questions such as, “How much did it rain last night?”

Yesterday was an awful day, an interminable one. I could have sworn it was “The Day Without End.” My head gyrated with worry. Superfluous thoughts and details over which I have no control filled my mind to overflowing. I headed out the door for a walk. Walking in the fresh air is often a source of mental and spiritual renewal, the result of introspection and time alone with my Heavenly Father.

That didn’t happen. As I walked, I felt a sensation on the side of my right knee. Immediately I stepped into that place in my mind where nothing good happens. I don’t want surgery. How am I going to be able to work if I can’t walk? That was just the beginning. I escalated into a full-blown “worst case scenario.” Fear took over. I slowed my pace, exercising caution as I walked along oh-so-carefully. I was certain an appointment with a surgeon awaited me around the next turn.

Arriving back home after a most uninspiring walk, I spent the rest of the afternoon and evening trying to not think about that specific body part in the middle of my leg—the one that bends but also helps hold me upright. You know how well that flies, don’t you? My knee was all I could think about. I was unable to find the focus I needed to deal with it before God.

Watching television was meant to be a distraction, but the real distraction was the status of “the knee.”  Did it hurt? Did I feel any pain when I moved it? What was THAT twinge? The news of the current political climate in our country only exacerbated my sense of helplessness and fear. Oh, the lunacy of us humans.

As I headed for bed I finally stopped spinning in circles. I was then able to hand over my concerns to God, those affecting my personal life as well as the state of the world. His silence was deafening. Where are you? I don’t see you or hear you. I don’t feel you was my last thought as I fell asleep.

In the world of meteorology, the weather field, barometers are used to measure pressure in the atmosphere. Changes in air pressure help weather forecasters predict shifts in the weather. If the pressure increases, that often means the air is warming and skies are clearing. Plans can be made for outdoor activities, since nice weather is on the way. Decreasing pressure often means the air is cooling and moisture is condensing in the air, forming clouds. Here comes the rain!

 I have my own barometer, but it isn’t related to the weather. It is connected to my inner being and is an accurate indicator of whether I am living in the peace provided by my Heavenly Father, or the chaos of the world. That barometer is my rocking chair. Its measure is the speed with which I rock.

 I hope this isn’t another day like yesterday was my thought as I awakened and began my morning ritual. I did not realize I was rocking so fast there was a potential for motion sickness—that is, until I slowed down. As the pace slowed, I realized I had entered a place of peace.

My knee has improved, though it wasn’t the sole contributor to my state of despair and discombobulation the day before. Life as we know it has been tossed up in the air due to a global pandemic and a politically divided country. What we are going to find when the dust settles? I can attest to the fact that trying to figure that out leads nowhere.

 “The Day Without End” did not come to a quiet close. A major storm passed through my area, dumping large amounts of rain. I would have seen the change in air pressure, evidence of its coming…if I had a barometer.

A storm of a different type also passed through my life, creating unrest. The intensity and force of it threatened to upend me. That didn’t take place. My rocking chair barometer bore that out, both as the storm came… and went. I am at peace. That is--until the next storm passes through. My Heavenly Father continues working with me in love.

 

Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you.

I do not give to you as the world gives.

Do not let your hearts be troubled, and do not let them be afraid.

John 14:27

 

 

 

How to Walk on Water

“So Peter got out of the boat, started walking on the water, and came toward Jesus” 

Many from my generation, born in the middle of the previous century, grew up attending Sunday School and church. Bible stories, gleaned from both the Old and New Testaments were part of the curricula taught during our childhood. Those stories include one about a pittance of food feeding a horde of people. Another tells of Peter, a disciple of Jesus, and his encounter with waters deep.

John the Baptist had been beheaded by King Herod, the result of his calling out Herod for having a relationship with his sister-in-law. John and Jesus were cousins. John was also the one who publicly acknowledged Christ as the Lamb of God, baptizing Him as He began His ministry.

The news of John’s death was sobering. Jesus headed for the boat to find refuge on the water. He needed some time alone.

When He came back ashore, He was met by masses of people. They had followed him on foot and were waiting. Filled with compassion, He pushed his personal grief aside and did not send the people away. Instead, He healed them and ministered to their needs.

The long day was coming to an end. It became apparent the crowd had not brought anything to eat with them. They were hungry. The area was deserted, and there weren’t any villages nearby to supply food for the five thousand men (plus women and children) who were present. The only food available was a boy’s offering of five small loaves of bread and two fish. Jesus accepted the gift, gave His blessing, and it multiplied beyond anyone’s imagination. The twelve baskets of leftovers provided evidence of a miracle. The throng ate and was filled, satisfied both spiritually and physically as they went back to their homes.

Night fell, and Christ instructed His disciples to board the boat and head for the opposite shore. He was going to climb the mountain by himself.  Without a doubt, His heart was broken over the report of John’s death. He needed to spend time with His Father.

A storm came up during the night when the disciples were far from land. They feared for their lives as fierce winds and waves battered the boat.

Early in the morning, Jesus walked on the sea toward them. They thought they saw a ghost and trembled with terror. “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid,” He reassured them.

Peter asked for a sign to prove it was Jesus. The disciple asked that He beckon him to join Him on the waves. 

And He did: “Come.”

Clambering over the side, Peter began walking on the water toward Jesus. The raging winds caused the water around him to roil. A powerful gust struck with such intensity that Peter turned to look. When he did, he took his eyes off Christ and promptly went under.

Christ reached out His hand to lift Peter up and said, perhaps with a bit of humor in His voice and a smile on His face, “You of little faith, why did you doubt?”

Many feel Bible stories are fabricated tales of glory and intrigue that have duped the gullible and less educated. Those of faith take an opposing stand, believing in the stories’ validity, reinforced by personal experience with a living God. The message is clear: If I look at the storms surrounding me, I am going to sink every time. Every. Single. Time. And I do. However, knowing the truth and living it are two different stories.

I have a lifelong friend who knows how to walk on water. The year 2019 brought her severe physical problems. She was overcome with excruciating joint pain throughout her body, the kind that has no future other than leading to life in a wheelchair. The suffering remained relentless. As 2020 approached, the pain abated but was replaced by blindness. It happened gradually, darkness taking over first one eye, then the other.

I phone her periodically. “How are you?” I ask.

Without fail, her response is, “Good.” And she is.

If I am asked the same question, I usually answer, “Okay.”  There are times when I am “good” but not with the same consistency as she. 

“You’re looking at the outer and not the inner,” my friend said. She also acknowledged it is easier said than done. It takes time and practice to stay focused on the inner—on God.

The world has experienced an upheaval, a literal turning upside-down of all that was once “normal.” COVID-19, the 2020 pandemic, is like a giant sinkhole that keeps growing, its center a vortex that sucks a person down if allowed. The political landscape portends fulfillment of biblical prophecies. What does it all mean?

Lying in bed one restless night, I was contemplating the long-term effects of the pandemic lockdown on my grandgirls, the push of government toward a one-world system (called the New World Order), and every other detail that entered my mind. That is looking at the outer, the storm with the wind and the waves—the opposite of faith and trust. You would think I would know better. I do. Old habits die hard.

I cried out to my heavenly Father, a familiar plea when I am mentally spinning off into oblivion. I don’t know how He does it, when it happens, or even why, but He always takes me to a better place.

How do you walk on water? Our walks with God are individual and personal. I am unable to refer you to a how-to manual. I am Peter in the raw. I doubt. God responds. I look around at the storms and flail about, sinking. Ever faithful, He reaches out and lifts me up.

This much I know: I revel in the times of inner peace and calm, as I fully realize they are because I am looking to Him not at the storms and garbage whirling around me. That is how and what it means to walk on water.

            

 Matthew 14:29 NRSV—opening scripture reference

On a Majority of One

majority: More than half (50%) of some group. The difference between the winning vote and the rest of the votes.

minority: Any subgroup that does not form a numerical majority

The little ragamuffin--all of eight or nine years old--stood alone facing the opposition of the world…at least the world as she knew it. She and a classmate were involved in a disagreement during recess on the playground of the tiny country grade school she attended. An invisible line was drawn and sides formed as fellow students joined in and stood in support of the one they felt was in the right. While it wasn’t a David and Goliath moment, there was no one on her side as hostility spewed from the mouths of those who became judge and jury. In frustration, she picked up a fir cone from the ground and threw it at her adversary. Widely missing its mark, the action prompted ridicule and even more heated comments. Mercy intervened when the bell rang, signaling the end of recess and time to return to the classroom.

Even the most casual of observers would have noted I was in the minority, not the majority.

A client and I had a conversation recently about those in our country who are part of a racial minority, particularly African-Americans. She expressed some of the inequities faced, the injustices meted out based solely on skin color. We agreed that neither of us have had similar experiences.   

“I am part of a minority,” I stated. It wasn’t something I intended to say. I have made it a policy not to discuss politics or religion with my clients in the eighteen years I’ve had my gardening business, but there it was. The incredulous expression on her face was one of speechlessness as she tried to comprehend the comment.

I weighed my words carefully, wanting to make certain she understood me. “I am a person of faith. We are a minority in this country.” I went on to explain I wasn’t talking about being religious or attending church. Being a person of faith means having a relationship with God, our creator. One need only look at the policies of our country where the effort has been made to remove God or any mention of Him from our culture. She was unable to deny it and didn’t try.

Majorities and minorities are a numbers thing. And they translate into power. The more numbers you have, the more power. It is that simple.

The little ragamuffin girl is still a part of who I am. I have always been one who wants to be on the winning side. I suspect I’m not unique. No one wants to be a loser. Recent events would suggest, however, that I am on the losing side. My principles and beliefs as a person of faith will likely be challenged as a result of the recent 2020 Presidential election. There are two ways to live; there are two paths. My way of life and the narrow path I am on is not the popular one.

All things are spiritual. Spiritual warfare began eons ago when Satan challenged God and His sovereignty. Michael and his angels fought him and his followers; Satan came up the loser. There was no place left for him and his angels in heaven as they were cast down to the earth.

Even though victory has already been declared, the battle continues as Satan fights for the hearts and souls of humankind. All things are spiritual. Pride does come before a fall.

If I look at the numbers it would appear I am in the minority in these times. But I’m not. I stand with God; He stands with me. He is a majority of one.

 

“What then shall we say to these things?

If God is for us, who can be against us?”

Romans 8:31